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55. 18 things I learned in life
written on Sunday, February 21, 2016 @ 11:17 PM
hey look, it foetus me~~~
apparently, 18 years ago from today, i was born. aha. yep. today is my birthday. weirdly i like my birth date because i found it quite hard to find somebody with a same birth date as mine. so, i think that maybe i should write a short post. mediocre short post. i cannot guarantee anything about how long this post gonna be. well then, i better start it right now.
so, here you go. 18 things i learned in life;
1. if someone doesn't appreciate you or treat you like you deserve to be treated, they are not worth the hurt, the pain and the heartbreak.
2. you make mistake because you are a human. it is normal for human to err.
3. make sure when you decided to walk out of someone's life, do not turn back around.
4. love your parents. they may not understand you all the time, but they will always be there to love you.
5. if someone say that they want you, be sure that they show it. not just say it.
6. don't let your past define who you are now.
7. if your best friend doesn't like your partner, there must be something wrong. you see what you want to see; and that will cover up all the flaws.
8. true friends will accept for who you are and never will judge you by your past.
9. friends fight, that's that. but true friends will always come back.
10. not everyone wants to hear about your problem, let alone care about it. try not to someone solve your problem for you. just let them be just the listener.
11. try to do new things. step out of your comfort zone. that's how you find yourself.
12. if you want something, work for it. people aren't born talented, honey. they work for it.
13. sometimes, even though you do your best, it is still not enough for someone else. so take the matters of your own hand. do not depend on someone else too much.
14. when you are promised or convinced with something, always expect for the least. it is hard to find someone who keep their promises.
15. do not let someone else be your happiness, they will always break it.
16. people's definitions of beautiful are different. if they tell you that you are ugly, someone else might see you like you are the most beautiful thing in the world.
17. people often sugarcoat things. so do not rely on the bright side. be prepared for the bitter.
18. it's quite flattering for someone to have a crush on you. but remember, being somebody's crush means that they like you for what they see. go for someone who has seen all the sides of you, and still want you for who you are.
god, that is all. i feel like there's a lot of other things that i want to point out but i have limited into 18. this is just what i learned. doesn't mean i'm right though. this is just how i feel. i haven't been living for a long time. i still do have something more to learn about. toodles~
Happy Birthday?
L.
Labels: 2016, life, life lessons, opinion, ramble, reflecting
49. Friday I'm in Love: January 2016.
written on Friday, February 5, 2016 @ 4:00 PM
waddup yall. okay i maybe need something a little less cheesy than that lol. but whatever. can you feel the love tonight? maybe it is not night time but still, can you feel the love? weirdo. but whatever. i don't care. i don't care if monday's blue. tuesday's grey and wednesday too. thursday, i don't care about you. it's FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE. (if you sang along then, bravo!)
it's time, guys. the first time ever for this year. a monthly favourite post. last year's attempt was a massive fail ahaha. there was only one post for it. however, this year i came up with another idea for my monthly favourite post. so, i thought on how can i make it sound fancier and much more exciting than just *inserts the name of the month* favourites. so there's that. i took the idea from the cure - friday i'm in love. i hope i won't get banned for any copyright issue. welp.
so i have found that i'm in love with a lot of things this month. so, bear with me because i have a feeling that this is going to be a quite long post to read as i have been doing that most of the time these days. i ramble a lot, if you haven't known that yet. but anyway, let's just go off straight to the post, shall we? (also, mind you that i didn't take a picture for the post aha so i will be taking pictures on google or weheartit sorry)
let's just start off with the thing that i love the MOST. like the most favourite out of all my favourites and it is a book. aha. how surprising is that. but i am sure that if you have read that book, you will agree with me that you won't stop bragging about it. the book is entitled All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. OKAY. STOP, RIGHT NOW. EVERYBODY FREEZE AND LISTEN TO WHAT I AM GOING TO SAY, OKAY? this book is just not amazing book. this book is beyond amazing. or i can say that, it is beyond perfection. so, if you haven't read this book yet, i recommend you to sit down, make a cup of tea and read the crap out of this book. i feel like this book are so underhyped and it deserve more than that. also, there was going to be a movie for this book so i encourage you to take your hands on this book and start reading now. you won't regret it. even i, myself read that book twice. yep. i reread the book as soon as i finish reading the book. i will never want to finish the book.
see, i just haven't talked about what this book really is about. i have just talked about how amazing this book is in just a paragraph, which i hope that i can ensure you how good this book is. basically, if you have read the book My Heart and Other Black Holes, it is almost the same. ALMOST. also, i feel like the guy character in the book, Theodore Finch a.k.a my boyfriend, have the same personality as Keith in the movie Keith. if you have seen that movie, you will know that Keith is the kind of guy who is different than any other else. he is very random and he did random stuffs, and so did Finch. i have never fallen in love with a fictional character as much as i do to Finch. maybe, my expectations to guys will be as high as the sky that i, myself will never be able to reach. bye, guys. i am going to marry my fictional boyfriend and live happily ever after.
so, as i said earlier, there is going to be a movie for that book and they already chose Elle Fanning to be the Violet Markey and have yet to choose Theodore Finch. and as the author describes Finch as a guy with a sky-blue eyes and black hair, i think that Nicholas Hoult would be the perfect person to be Finch. but some people think that he is too mature to be Finch. but i don't care. i want him, and him alone to be my Finch. that is it. i will make all of you guys sign a petition for that.
enough about my favourite book. i will never stop talk about it if i haven't remind myself that i still have a lot of things to talk about in this post. phew. so, the next thing i love in this month is, the movie: Miracle in Cell no. 7. okay, this one. i had to blame my friend for letting me drown in tears. my friend, Sara, who i had a sleepover with in my house was suggesting us to watch that movie. and i have heard great things about it. all i heard that it is a really sad, sad movie. and the saddest movie that i have ever watched is I Am Sam.
apparently, this movie is kinda similar to that movie but sadder and it's Korean. and when i heard that it is going to be sad, i was mentally prepared. i thought that it was going to be like sad of a tear rolling off my cheeks. INSTEAD, there was like a tsunami coming upon my eyes. i was like Alice who is swimming in her own tears but worse, i was drowning in it. never thought that i will be alive. i proper cried like somebody just died or something. it was that SAD. so, i suggest you to watch that movie but all you have to do is be mentally and emotionally prepared of what's coming towards the end.
another movie that I have been loving is Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. if you have heard about it, and never seen it, i think you should. however, i don't feel like everyone will like it. because it has a very different concept in that movie. it has like a mix of fantasy, action, musical, comedy, and all that sort of stuff. but i think you should give it a try. this movie is from a graphic novel and it is just well adapted. i think this movie is so underrated, because there's not much people are talking about it. but hey, i am not here to force you to like what i like.
another thing that i have been binge-watching for the past few weeks and still am now is Dance Moms. i have been rewatching it from season 1. despite all the mama dramas in that show, i love love love all the girls. they are incredibly talented. GOD, i wish i can have all those legs and body and dance skills. although, i despise abby with all my might. i don't let it get in my way from watching them. because, we need to remind ourselves sometimes, that reality tv shows aren't really showing us the reality. some of them are kind of made up. so, i don't care what the show portray the girls as, i still love them. i don'teven have a favourite because the girls are all great and different. they all have their own capabilities. ugh i sound so cliche somebody please slap me in the face. still, i love that show since day one.
look at that. i mean, DAMN. also, my fav group routine.
the next thing that i love is going to be cliche so please go get a bucket and get ready to throw up any time sooner. it is my blog. aha. i love that i have decided to start blogging more often. as i haven't been to school for moths now, i think that my writing gets a little bit rusty if i didn't practise it on my own. so, i took blogging as my homework. and i feel like this blog is my responsibility although i don't feel like there is actually real people who truly read my most-of-the-time-rambling posts. if you are one of them, you rock. thank you for reading. i feel the need to improve my writing when i read Hannah Maggs and Zoella's blogs. they put up the words flawlessly and it fits perfectly together. whereas for me, i just threw in words that i think will make it do.
the highlight of my month is probably the trip to Bangkok. and i could talk about it more but i have already written a post about that in the previous post, so you might as well want to check out on that. all i am hoping is just i could travel and trravel and travel until i don't have anywhere else that i can go to. maybe even the other planets, who knows? i'm a weirdo. talking about Bangkok, i just remembered that i have bought this lovely sweater that i love. it is so comfortable i could wear it everyday. and here's a picture of me wearing it so you can't really see it (but it's a rip off of a NIKE sweater but i swear it's comfy i could make a bed out of it and that is all that matters);
i know that i said that i have a lot of things that i love this month and it turned out not that much. but i think nobody will really give a damn about it hahaha. whatever it is, this has been a really long post. i doubt anybody else would read it until the end if i keep going on about other stuffs that don't quite matter. so it think, that's that. thank you for reading. love ya. x
Saturdaaaay, wait.
L.
Labels: 2016, favourite
47. Bangkok Trip 2015.
written on Monday, February 1, 2016 @ 5:17 PM
hello, hello. how are you? i'm good, thanks for asking if you do. aha. so, if any of you aware that i didn't post my #fangirlfriday last week, i'm sorry(?) i was away for like four days. i came back on the Friday night and i wanted to post #fangirlfriday but then i thought that it was a bad idea because i was exhausted so i don't want to ruin my #fangirlfriday. so yeah that is a paragraph in why didn't i post #fangirlfriday. also, just to warn you that there isn't going to be #fangirlfriday for this week either because it is the first week of the month. and there is going to be my first Friday I'm in Love post. hurrah. so, stay tuned for that one.
so if any of you are wondering, where the hell have i been to. i went to a place that is not that far but far enough for me to get on my first flight ever (okay, i just realised that you probably would've guessed by the title. pffft). that's right, i have been living for almost 18 years, and i just had my first flight. and i tell you what, i wish i could just stay forever in an airplane. i am hoping that i will never stop flying. there, that's my dream now. so yeah, it's kinda frustrating because the place that i went to, didn't take a long flight. it took only like two hours or so. i mean, Bangkok is not that far.
zoo wee mama. look at that beautz.
i guess you can tell that i am a sucker for nature's beauty. especially when you are a few hundred feet off the ground. i mean, come on. look at that. everything from the sky looks so small. everything looks like paper. paper towns. aha. i have to admit i was a little bit to excited when i was on the plane. as i have always said, i was born as naturally suspicious. oh boy, did i question everything. i asked every WH questions that i could to their dos and don'ts. apologies to my cousin who had to sit beside me for two hours and more.
as soon as we arrived there, we went to the hotel. but as we stepped out of the airport, a very chilly wind passed through our faces which we thought was the a/c. but who knows we are wrong? i immediately checked for the weather and totally did not expect to see this one coming.
i mean... all of us expected that it was going to be a very hot weather. turned out we were wrong. and the fact that we all did not packed up a thick clothes with us, we knew by that moment we were kinda doomed. however, we can't control the weather. so... you know now it's important to check the weather before going for a vacation. but you know, i felt like we were blessed. haha. that was probably the coldest temperature that i have ever been, i thought. but wait until it was night time. the lowest temperature was 16 degrees Celcius. the only thick cloth that i brought with me was my pyjamas sweater. because i thought that the coldest i will ever be was when i was in the hotel. so moral of the story is always bring along thick clothes with you, kids. because you'll never know.
despite the cold weather, we really had fun. we really did. the cold weather didn't stop us, really. i think it was great that we didn't have to deal with the sweats and sunburn #blessed. for the first day, we just walked around the markets and malls nearby our hotel. all of the stuffs were pretty darn cheap. also, we were allowed to bargain. luckily, i could control myself from buying the whole mall because the dress and the shirts and the clothes that they sell was all i ever wanted. but i had to tell myself that there was a lot of other places that we needed to go. so, i can say that i was quite a good girl.
what is a holiday without a sightseeing to their remarkable places, am i right? for the second day, we went to see the temples. there was no other words i could describe the place except for beautiful. it was beautiful. the architecture was amazing. all the details. what i love the most was the drawing that was painted by hand inside the reclining buddha's temple. sorry for the lack of the picture because i used the camera to take a video. what a vlogger wannabe.
after walking around the temple with the oohs and the ahhs over the beauty, we went to Terminal 21 which is AN AMAZING SHOPPING MALL I HAVE EVER STEPPED INTO. let me tell you why. it is because every level of the mall represents different countries. there were Carribean, Rome, Paris, Paris, Tokyo, LONDON, Istanbul, San Francisco, and Hollywood. it was brilliant idea. and i had to break it to you, my cousin and i went to every level just to see the restroom HAHAHA. what a loser. but trust me, you will never see that anywhere. my favourite restroom had to be Istanbul's. it is just beautiful. that was like the closest i will ever be to Istanbul. here are some of the decent-looking picture of me there;
throw the coins, anyone?
hello from the other side.
read:in british accent.
also, a way to the ministry of magic. ehem.
this is the restroom. I KNOW RIGHT?
this is the restroom in the paris's level. YEP.
bathroom mirror selfie game strong.
golden gate bridge.
this was where i realised that this was the closest i will ever be to london.
nothing much happened really. we then went to After You Cafe and i swear to God the dessert there were all amazing. and beautiful as well. i nearly shed off a tear or two.
i mean look at that. no photoshop needed, am i right?
after all the shoppings, we went back to the hotel. well, i did buy something. now if you guessed BOOKS, then you are amazing. we were walking at the siam paragon and i spotted kinokuniya and i nearly died. i went to Thailand with only two books (Girl Online on Tour and Me & Earl & The Dying Girl) and came back with another two books (surprise, surprise, right?). what a nerd, i know.
i mean... i can get this anywhere in my place so. heheh.
after that, my cousin and I went to the night market. and here comes the best part. as we were walking back to the hotel, i saw someone that i was quite familiar. that someone familiar was a celebrity. i instantly knew that i wasn't wrong when his wife walked out of the hotel. and i asked my cousin "KAK NADIA! AWAL ASHAARI EH TU???" and i swear to God we ran to him and asked for a picture. we did get one but he was in a hurry ahhhdjshfdjjkfsdh. i still couldn't fangirling until now. i mean WE LIVED IN THE SAME HOTEL WITH THEM WHAT THE HELL i just dsjfgjdslhfkdsjdhsfjs then we went back to the hotel fangirling and screaming together. we just couldn't stop talking about it until we slept. it was mindblowing because we have been living in the same country and out of all that time, the time when we were in Bangkok was the time we were be able to meet him and his beautiful, beautifullll wife.
okay, enough fangirling. the next day we went to madame tussauds. another day of fangirling. i finally be able to take a picture with my boyfriend, Mario Maurer. even though it was just a wax figure.
okay, couldn't it be any more obvious that it was a wax figure? haha.
sorry, Einstein. i kinda failed at Physics :P
i have something Leonardo DiCaprio doesn't have. soz.
ok. no more spamming pictures. hahahaha.
after that we went to the Hello Kitty House Cafe and it was sooo KAWAII. had to say that. i just had to, okay? we had a few desserts but it was okay. not as good as the After You Cafe but the cuteness covered it all.
hello kitty, you're so pretty. k-k-k-kawaii~
lol i'm not that good in this flat-lay photography. not yet.
we just had to eat the signature dish in Thailand to complete the vacation. and to be frank, it was quite hard for us to find a Halal restaurant. even if we did, it was not that good. but thanks to Google, we did find one (Yana Restaurant - yes, guyd. i have a restaurant in Thailand. sit down, sit down). we had the Thailand dishes. it was amazing. especially the tomyam. I COMMAND YOU TO TASTE IT IF YOU EVER GO THERE.
all we did was nothing except for shopping. then, shopping and shopping. again and again. lol. but yeah on the last day, we went for swimming. YASSSS. i haven't been swimming for years. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i did. mind you, i am nowhere near a great swimmer. i suck at it. i suck at any sports. all that i can do is stretching. yep. my cousin was a great swimmer so she taught me a few swimming techniques and of course, i failed. the only thing that i could do was the floating, which i have never been able to do before. so i was pretty chuffed with that. so that was all we did that morning. we spent all of our morning at the hotel just before we check out. then we had a little walk around to find some stuffs that we hadn't bought for our family. we also tasted the Coconut Ice Cream YUM. and i had the other ice cream which idk what the name was but IT WAS THE CUTEST ICE CREAM EVER.
the saddest part finally came, guys. we had to go back home. our flight was at 8 PM. and we arrived Singapore in the midnight, 12 AM. the flight back home was better than the first flight. because the flight back home had a lot of movies that I could watch. i couldn't even choose. THERE WAS EVEN HARRY POTTER but i know for sure that i wouldn't be able to finish watching it. in the end, i just watched a movie that i have watched before which is Pitch Perfect. because i couldn't take the risk of cliffhangers. oh, if you were wondering, i went on SIA's flight. not SIA as in Sia who sings Chandelier but SIA - Singapore Airlines. and there was nothing to complain about. the service was good and all.
can i live in airplane forever?
airport at midnight is the best. especially when it is Changi Airport. i could live there.
that was a looooooong post. sorry if i ramble too much but yeah. my favourite part was probably flying. it was my first time. but i guess, everything that we do is first time. oh well. it is sad now that i can only talk about it. i am just hoping that i could study aboard. that would be amazing. pray for me so i could get to study in London or anywhere as long as it is in overseas so we can go for a little bit more adventure together. i love this. i would love to make this blog to a travel blog if i could. but i know for sure that was nowhere near possible. i am just a girl who lives in her own imagination. at least it was as amazing as travel all around the world. haa. i am gonna cry now. goodbye.
Adventure Awaits,
L.
also, sorry for the bad quality or bad techniques of photography haha. i need DSLR. like seriously.
Labels: 2016, travel
#39 - Page 365 of 365.
written on Thursday, December 31, 2015 @ 6:53 PM
well, hello there people. how are you? good? good. okay. now what? NOW WHAT THAT WE HAVE REACH TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR??? seriously. i actually cannot believe that i survived throughout the whole year. i thought i might be dead somewhere in the beginning of the year. phew.
being a dedicated blogger as i am (yeah right), i decided to write a post about my 2012. somehow, i have a lot of things that i wanted to talk about but i do not know where the hell should i begin. so, i am just going to answer some questions that i found from buzzfeed (lol). so yeah hahaha.
1. What did you do this year that you’re proud of?
there is A LOT of things that i did this year that i am proud of. firstly, i decided to step out of my comfort zone. as it was my last year of high school, i thought there was nothing i could lose. i participated in my school drama (THE BEST ONE YET), public speaking, dancing and singing competition or performances (whichever). also, i entered my school's competition (SMKPG GOT TALENT) and i wrote a short story which you can find here in my blog (When Love Collides). and gladly to be said that i won the competition. first place for my category. but the participant in that category is not that a lot so the chances for me winning is quite big hahaha. so that's that.
2. Who did you meet this year that inspired you?
honestly, i did not really meet a lot of new people. but the one that inspired me is probably my friends. being friends with them has showed me that everyone deserves another chance. and no matter if you have done a big mistake, the right people will always be there to accept you in their life. so i must say that i have the best friends i could ever ask for.
3. What did you read that you think bettered you?
i think It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini has made me a better person. and i really, really recommend you to read it because it is such a light reading. it carries quite a heavy topics but it delivers it in a fun way. i like the humour in it. totally laughable. i do not actually think that i have a quite lols for myself while reading. another book that i reread for this year that has bettered me is probably A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. i might have shed a tear or two. also, i started to read the divergent series this year (late, i know) and it is grrrrreat. i am now starting on to read allegiant. which i am excited for.
4. What are songs that you will always hear and think of this year even when you’re listening on some contraption that hasn’t even been invented yet?
if i have been given the chance to list all of my favourite songs, you probably will never see tomorrow. it is never-ending haha. but let us all be real. the biggest hit this year is Hello by Adele and i am pretty sure i will remember 2o15 whenever i listen to that song. other song probably might be R.I.P 2 My Youth by The Neighbourhood. to be quite honest, i listen to that song on repeat for almost a week or so. yep. also that song reminds me about how am i about to enter the real world as the school ends so RIP YOUTH.
5. What were some times that you laughed so hard you could barely breathe?
there are a lot of times that i laughed so hard that i could barely breathe. i even thought i might die for a second there. it is just a lot and i cannot tell which one. but mostly were when i was with my friends. probably family as well. but the last time i laugh so hard that i am completely outta my breath was yesterday, when i was watching tyler oakley's video. well, of course.
6. What were your favorite movies? Not what was good, not what you had to see because of your friends or the media. What were your favorites?
honestly, i didn't see a lot of movies this year. i haven't even watched paper towns and inside out yet. which is pretty sad. but my favourite movie from this year gotta be antman. it is just the best. i did watch pitch perfect 2 but i have to say the movie is pretty dull. meh. so yeah, antman gotta be the best one i have seen for 2015.
7. What are some fears that you had at the beginning of the year that you overcame?
fear of being my own self. fear of performing in front of people because i am scared that people might judge me. but now to think of that, i just do not care anymore. i gotta do what i want to do. just be it. just do it. do not think about other people. it is time for you to shine. JUST DO IT (read: in shia's voice)
8. What were quotes that you loved this year?
"show them all you're not the ordinary type."
–P!ATD
"why fear death just because you know the song will end. is that any reason not to listen?"
–emerly35, Emily is Away
"no one really knows why they are alive until they know what they'd die for."
–Martin Luther King Jr.
"maybe there's more we all could have done, but we just have to let the guilt remind us to do better next time."
–Tobias Eaton.
"life goes on until it doesn't"
–Extraordinary Means.
"i know people come and go but it still hurts when they do."
9. What are ways that you exercised self care?
always, always remind myself to love myself, to choose to be happy. treat myself better. do not hurt myself just because somebody hurt me. that is not the way to do it. everything has a solution. trust God. if it doesn't have solution, it probably wouldn't exist in the first place.
TW: i used to self harm, but now i am 6 months clean. self harm is a not way to escape. it does not worth it to be hurt in such a way . just because it relieves the pain, does not mean your problem will go away. treat yourself like a princess even if nobody treats you that way. you deserve to be treated well.
10. What are things you want to see more of next year?
i do not know what am i expecting. but i just need to see more FAITH IN HUMANITY. sorry if that appeared to be aggressive but yeah. we need faith in humanity. we are living in a dying world with a lot of bad people. however, i believe that good people still exist.
11. What are five things you did that you never thought you’d actually do?
- participate in drama
- singing in public
- participate in dancing
- public speaking
- love myself
12. What were your favorite things this year?
WHOA. A LOT OF THINGS. i cannot even list it. everything in this year probably is my favourite things in this year. despite how bad. it makes me who i am now. whoa deep.
13. What are the most important things you learned this year?
do not put somebody else as your happiness. be happy with no reason. just love yourself when nobody else does. it is okay to make mistake. it is okay to be a human. human makes mistake. the right person will always accept you no matter what. do not judge people for what they do in the past. it is in their past. it does not matter any more. try and choose to be happy. CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. it is important. your self worth is not defined by how people treat you. if they treat you badly, they do not deserve you. i mean, how can you possibly assure that they will love you and take care of you if they do not even know how to treat you like a human being supposed to be treated. be nice to people. be kind. be wise. be whoever you are. remember, just because you act childish, does not mean you are not mature. maturity is defined by how you treat something. and love yourself. just love yourself. have faith.
whoa. i sure did learn a lot this year.
14. What is your favorite photo from this year?
i just cannot choose :p
15. What are five things you want to say to people you love?
- thank you so much for everything.
- thank you for accepting me.
- thank you if you for loving me or ever loved me.
- you are the best.
- may God give you the best and i love you loads :)
16. What are some places where you feel true joy in your life?
BOOK STORE. just book store.
oh wait. how can i forget anywhere with food haih. and not to forget, my room where i spent most of my time being alone.
17. Where do you feel most yourself?
as i just said, my room. whenever i am with myself. whenever i am with my friends. my happy place :)
18. What were your favorite meals?
can we just not?
BECAUSE I CANNOT CHOOSE.
but fish and chips, please. (idk why but i am not keen upon chicken any longer and that is sad).
19. How did you calm yourself in times of stress?
listen to quran recitation perhaps? probably go to youtube, watching some funny videos that can make me laugh away from my stress.
20. What are some compliments that you received that deeply affected you?
"you are gifted."
:)
21. Who are people that you believe are bringing out the best in you?
my friends and family, of course. they are always there to support me to do things that i love. and they are there to advise me every time i needed it. so thanks to them and thanks to God for sending me such good people to be with. through ups and downs.
22. What items of clothing did you buy that felt the most you?
does wristband count as items of clothing? if so, then...
23. What are you excited about leaving behind in 2015?
NO MORE SCHOOL = NO MORE HOMEWORKS YASSSSSSSSSSSSSS
although i am kinda missing school right now. how odd.
24. What are five things that you were hard on yourself about but would never have been hard on a friend if they were experiencing it?
i seriously do not know this one. like i seriously cannot think of one. i wonder what is it. probably i do not realise it?
25. What are the best pieces of advice you heard this year?
if somebody truly loves you, they will not dare to touch you.
think of it like this, like whenever you bought new stuff, for an example, books (how original). most of the time you probably will be very careful when you touch it. or you probably just would not dare to touch it at all because you are afraid if you are going to ruin the book. same goes to people.
"be a better person. whatever happened in the past, let it be and just make it as a lesson. never repeat the same mistake again. be wise. i know you are a nice person. you can be."
it is probably just the normal advice somebody would give to you. but when my chemistry teacher said it, it just hit me in the heart.
"Allah bagi balasan dekat orang jahat. Allah bagi ujian kat orang baik. Aku tau apa yang Allah bagi kau sekarang ni cuma ujian je. sebab kau orang baik."
26. What are the best pieces of advice you gave this year?
"Allah knows what is in every heart. If you truly want it, you ask for it, Allah will give you, InshaAllah. but if you do not get what you want, do not be despair. Allah has something better for you. the best for you, indeed. cause Allah knows."
"kita yakin awak boleh dapat apa yang awak nak kalau Allah kata itu yang terbaik untuk awak. Allah dah tulis cantik cantik jalan cerita kita so jangan risau ye."
"hidup ni tak selalu indah, kan? bukan sebab Allah tak nak bagi kita bahagia tapo Allah simpankan bahagia kita tu maybe untuk benda lain ke kan, kita tak tau.
27. What things have you been putting off doing because you didn’t have time?
i have not been writing in my poetry journal because of spm. so i need to continue it. also, i have not been drawing and colouring for a long time. i kinda miss it.
28. What are some things you’d like to focus and work on in the next year?
i want to focus on my writing for next year. i want to improve my English to become better than they are now. because we can never stop learning, can we? so yeah. i just want to write more and more and more. if possible, i want to write a blog post everyday but it sounds hard. so we'll see.
29. What are the best parts of you that you feel really showed through this year?
i do not really know my best parts. but i think receiving an award as the best English students does count as one, right? hehehe.
30. What are your biggest hopes for 2016?
honestly, i do not really hope that much because as we usually hear is expectations always lead to disappointments. so yeah. no more high expectation. i am just hoping that i will become a better person and everything will come at ease.
whoa. that was a really long post. so i had to limit myself when answering the question. so yeah. we are only a few hours away in leaving 2015. which is pretty sad. i have to admit that i am not ready yet to leave 2015. despite the bad things that happened, it is still the best year that i could ever ask. however, i wish you all will have a blast and shine bright for next year. just believe in yourself :)
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, 2016, reflecting
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55. 18 things I learned in life
written on Sunday, February 21, 2016 @ 11:17 PM ✈
hey look, it foetus me~~~
apparently, 18 years ago from today, i was born. aha. yep. today is my birthday. weirdly i like my birth date because i found it quite hard to find somebody with a same birth date as mine. so, i think that maybe i should write a short post. mediocre short post. i cannot guarantee anything about how long this post gonna be. well then, i better start it right now.
so, here you go. 18 things i learned in life;
1. if someone doesn't appreciate you or treat you like you deserve to be treated, they are not worth the hurt, the pain and the heartbreak.
2. you make mistake because you are a human. it is normal for human to err.
3. make sure when you decided to walk out of someone's life, do not turn back around.
4. love your parents. they may not understand you all the time, but they will always be there to love you.
5. if someone say that they want you, be sure that they show it. not just say it.
6. don't let your past define who you are now.
7. if your best friend doesn't like your partner, there must be something wrong. you see what you want to see; and that will cover up all the flaws.
8. true friends will accept for who you are and never will judge you by your past.
9. friends fight, that's that. but true friends will always come back.
10. not everyone wants to hear about your problem, let alone care about it. try not to someone solve your problem for you. just let them be just the listener.
11. try to do new things. step out of your comfort zone. that's how you find yourself.
12. if you want something, work for it. people aren't born talented, honey. they work for it.
13. sometimes, even though you do your best, it is still not enough for someone else. so take the matters of your own hand. do not depend on someone else too much.
14. when you are promised or convinced with something, always expect for the least. it is hard to find someone who keep their promises.
15. do not let someone else be your happiness, they will always break it.
16. people's definitions of beautiful are different. if they tell you that you are ugly, someone else might see you like you are the most beautiful thing in the world.
17. people often sugarcoat things. so do not rely on the bright side. be prepared for the bitter.
18. it's quite flattering for someone to have a crush on you. but remember, being somebody's crush means that they like you for what they see. go for someone who has seen all the sides of you, and still want you for who you are.
god, that is all. i feel like there's a lot of other things that i want to point out but i have limited into 18. this is just what i learned. doesn't mean i'm right though. this is just how i feel. i haven't been living for a long time. i still do have something more to learn about. toodles~
Happy Birthday?
L.
Labels: 2016, life, life lessons, opinion, ramble, reflecting
49. Friday I'm in Love: January 2016.
written on Friday, February 5, 2016 @ 4:00 PM ✈
waddup yall. okay i maybe need something a little less cheesy than that lol. but whatever. can you feel the love tonight? maybe it is not night time but still, can you feel the love? weirdo. but whatever. i don't care. i don't care if monday's blue. tuesday's grey and wednesday too. thursday, i don't care about you. it's FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE. (if you sang along then, bravo!)
it's time, guys. the first time ever for this year. a monthly favourite post. last year's attempt was a massive fail ahaha. there was only one post for it. however, this year i came up with another idea for my monthly favourite post. so, i thought on how can i make it sound fancier and much more exciting than just *inserts the name of the month* favourites. so there's that. i took the idea from the cure - friday i'm in love. i hope i won't get banned for any copyright issue. welp.
so i have found that i'm in love with a lot of things this month. so, bear with me because i have a feeling that this is going to be a quite long post to read as i have been doing that most of the time these days. i ramble a lot, if you haven't known that yet. but anyway, let's just go off straight to the post, shall we? (also, mind you that i didn't take a picture for the post aha so i will be taking pictures on google or weheartit sorry)
let's just start off with the thing that i love the MOST. like the most favourite out of all my favourites and it is a book. aha. how surprising is that. but i am sure that if you have read that book, you will agree with me that you won't stop bragging about it. the book is entitled All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. OKAY. STOP, RIGHT NOW. EVERYBODY FREEZE AND LISTEN TO WHAT I AM GOING TO SAY, OKAY? this book is just not amazing book. this book is beyond amazing. or i can say that, it is beyond perfection. so, if you haven't read this book yet, i recommend you to sit down, make a cup of tea and read the crap out of this book. i feel like this book are so underhyped and it deserve more than that. also, there was going to be a movie for this book so i encourage you to take your hands on this book and start reading now. you won't regret it. even i, myself read that book twice. yep. i reread the book as soon as i finish reading the book. i will never want to finish the book.
see, i just haven't talked about what this book really is about. i have just talked about how amazing this book is in just a paragraph, which i hope that i can ensure you how good this book is. basically, if you have read the book My Heart and Other Black Holes, it is almost the same. ALMOST. also, i feel like the guy character in the book, Theodore Finch a.k.a my boyfriend, have the same personality as Keith in the movie Keith. if you have seen that movie, you will know that Keith is the kind of guy who is different than any other else. he is very random and he did random stuffs, and so did Finch. i have never fallen in love with a fictional character as much as i do to Finch. maybe, my expectations to guys will be as high as the sky that i, myself will never be able to reach. bye, guys. i am going to marry my fictional boyfriend and live happily ever after.
so, as i said earlier, there is going to be a movie for that book and they already chose Elle Fanning to be the Violet Markey and have yet to choose Theodore Finch. and as the author describes Finch as a guy with a sky-blue eyes and black hair, i think that Nicholas Hoult would be the perfect person to be Finch. but some people think that he is too mature to be Finch. but i don't care. i want him, and him alone to be my Finch. that is it. i will make all of you guys sign a petition for that.
enough about my favourite book. i will never stop talk about it if i haven't remind myself that i still have a lot of things to talk about in this post. phew. so, the next thing i love in this month is, the movie: Miracle in Cell no. 7. okay, this one. i had to blame my friend for letting me drown in tears. my friend, Sara, who i had a sleepover with in my house was suggesting us to watch that movie. and i have heard great things about it. all i heard that it is a really sad, sad movie. and the saddest movie that i have ever watched is I Am Sam.
apparently, this movie is kinda similar to that movie but sadder and it's Korean. and when i heard that it is going to be sad, i was mentally prepared. i thought that it was going to be like sad of a tear rolling off my cheeks. INSTEAD, there was like a tsunami coming upon my eyes. i was like Alice who is swimming in her own tears but worse, i was drowning in it. never thought that i will be alive. i proper cried like somebody just died or something. it was that SAD. so, i suggest you to watch that movie but all you have to do is be mentally and emotionally prepared of what's coming towards the end.
another movie that I have been loving is Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. if you have heard about it, and never seen it, i think you should. however, i don't feel like everyone will like it. because it has a very different concept in that movie. it has like a mix of fantasy, action, musical, comedy, and all that sort of stuff. but i think you should give it a try. this movie is from a graphic novel and it is just well adapted. i think this movie is so underrated, because there's not much people are talking about it. but hey, i am not here to force you to like what i like.
another thing that i have been binge-watching for the past few weeks and still am now is Dance Moms. i have been rewatching it from season 1. despite all the mama dramas in that show, i love love love all the girls. they are incredibly talented. GOD, i wish i can have all those legs and body and dance skills. although, i despise abby with all my might. i don't let it get in my way from watching them. because, we need to remind ourselves sometimes, that reality tv shows aren't really showing us the reality. some of them are kind of made up. so, i don't care what the show portray the girls as, i still love them. i don'teven have a favourite because the girls are all great and different. they all have their own capabilities. ugh i sound so cliche somebody please slap me in the face. still, i love that show since day one.
look at that. i mean, DAMN. also, my fav group routine.
the next thing that i love is going to be cliche so please go get a bucket and get ready to throw up any time sooner. it is my blog. aha. i love that i have decided to start blogging more often. as i haven't been to school for moths now, i think that my writing gets a little bit rusty if i didn't practise it on my own. so, i took blogging as my homework. and i feel like this blog is my responsibility although i don't feel like there is actually real people who truly read my most-of-the-time-rambling posts. if you are one of them, you rock. thank you for reading. i feel the need to improve my writing when i read Hannah Maggs and Zoella's blogs. they put up the words flawlessly and it fits perfectly together. whereas for me, i just threw in words that i think will make it do.
the highlight of my month is probably the trip to Bangkok. and i could talk about it more but i have already written a post about that in the previous post, so you might as well want to check out on that. all i am hoping is just i could travel and trravel and travel until i don't have anywhere else that i can go to. maybe even the other planets, who knows? i'm a weirdo. talking about Bangkok, i just remembered that i have bought this lovely sweater that i love. it is so comfortable i could wear it everyday. and here's a picture of me wearing it so you can't really see it (but it's a rip off of a NIKE sweater but i swear it's comfy i could make a bed out of it and that is all that matters);
i know that i said that i have a lot of things that i love this month and it turned out not that much. but i think nobody will really give a damn about it hahaha. whatever it is, this has been a really long post. i doubt anybody else would read it until the end if i keep going on about other stuffs that don't quite matter. so it think, that's that. thank you for reading. love ya. x
Saturdaaaay, wait.
L.
Labels: 2016, favourite
47. Bangkok Trip 2015.
written on Monday, February 1, 2016 @ 5:17 PM ✈
hello, hello. how are you? i'm good, thanks for asking if you do. aha. so, if any of you aware that i didn't post my #fangirlfriday last week, i'm sorry(?) i was away for like four days. i came back on the Friday night and i wanted to post #fangirlfriday but then i thought that it was a bad idea because i was exhausted so i don't want to ruin my #fangirlfriday. so yeah that is a paragraph in why didn't i post #fangirlfriday. also, just to warn you that there isn't going to be #fangirlfriday for this week either because it is the first week of the month. and there is going to be my first Friday I'm in Love post. hurrah. so, stay tuned for that one.
so if any of you are wondering, where the hell have i been to. i went to a place that is not that far but far enough for me to get on my first flight ever (okay, i just realised that you probably would've guessed by the title. pffft). that's right, i have been living for almost 18 years, and i just had my first flight. and i tell you what, i wish i could just stay forever in an airplane. i am hoping that i will never stop flying. there, that's my dream now. so yeah, it's kinda frustrating because the place that i went to, didn't take a long flight. it took only like two hours or so. i mean, Bangkok is not that far.
zoo wee mama. look at that beautz.
i guess you can tell that i am a sucker for nature's beauty. especially when you are a few hundred feet off the ground. i mean, come on. look at that. everything from the sky looks so small. everything looks like paper. paper towns. aha. i have to admit i was a little bit to excited when i was on the plane. as i have always said, i was born as naturally suspicious. oh boy, did i question everything. i asked every WH questions that i could to their dos and don'ts. apologies to my cousin who had to sit beside me for two hours and more.
as soon as we arrived there, we went to the hotel. but as we stepped out of the airport, a very chilly wind passed through our faces which we thought was the a/c. but who knows we are wrong? i immediately checked for the weather and totally did not expect to see this one coming.
i mean... all of us expected that it was going to be a very hot weather. turned out we were wrong. and the fact that we all did not packed up a thick clothes with us, we knew by that moment we were kinda doomed. however, we can't control the weather. so... you know now it's important to check the weather before going for a vacation. but you know, i felt like we were blessed. haha. that was probably the coldest temperature that i have ever been, i thought. but wait until it was night time. the lowest temperature was 16 degrees Celcius. the only thick cloth that i brought with me was my pyjamas sweater. because i thought that the coldest i will ever be was when i was in the hotel. so moral of the story is always bring along thick clothes with you, kids. because you'll never know.
despite the cold weather, we really had fun. we really did. the cold weather didn't stop us, really. i think it was great that we didn't have to deal with the sweats and sunburn #blessed. for the first day, we just walked around the markets and malls nearby our hotel. all of the stuffs were pretty darn cheap. also, we were allowed to bargain. luckily, i could control myself from buying the whole mall because the dress and the shirts and the clothes that they sell was all i ever wanted. but i had to tell myself that there was a lot of other places that we needed to go. so, i can say that i was quite a good girl.
what is a holiday without a sightseeing to their remarkable places, am i right? for the second day, we went to see the temples. there was no other words i could describe the place except for beautiful. it was beautiful. the architecture was amazing. all the details. what i love the most was the drawing that was painted by hand inside the reclining buddha's temple. sorry for the lack of the picture because i used the camera to take a video. what a vlogger wannabe.
after walking around the temple with the oohs and the ahhs over the beauty, we went to Terminal 21 which is AN AMAZING SHOPPING MALL I HAVE EVER STEPPED INTO. let me tell you why. it is because every level of the mall represents different countries. there were Carribean, Rome, Paris, Paris, Tokyo, LONDON, Istanbul, San Francisco, and Hollywood. it was brilliant idea. and i had to break it to you, my cousin and i went to every level just to see the restroom HAHAHA. what a loser. but trust me, you will never see that anywhere. my favourite restroom had to be Istanbul's. it is just beautiful. that was like the closest i will ever be to Istanbul. here are some of the decent-looking picture of me there;
throw the coins, anyone?
hello from the other side.
read:in british accent.
also, a way to the ministry of magic. ehem.
this is the restroom. I KNOW RIGHT?
this is the restroom in the paris's level. YEP.
bathroom mirror selfie game strong.
golden gate bridge.
this was where i realised that this was the closest i will ever be to london.
nothing much happened really. we then went to After You Cafe and i swear to God the dessert there were all amazing. and beautiful as well. i nearly shed off a tear or two.
i mean look at that. no photoshop needed, am i right?
after all the shoppings, we went back to the hotel. well, i did buy something. now if you guessed BOOKS, then you are amazing. we were walking at the siam paragon and i spotted kinokuniya and i nearly died. i went to Thailand with only two books (Girl Online on Tour and Me & Earl & The Dying Girl) and came back with another two books (surprise, surprise, right?). what a nerd, i know.
i mean... i can get this anywhere in my place so. heheh.
after that, my cousin and I went to the night market. and here comes the best part. as we were walking back to the hotel, i saw someone that i was quite familiar. that someone familiar was a celebrity. i instantly knew that i wasn't wrong when his wife walked out of the hotel. and i asked my cousin "KAK NADIA! AWAL ASHAARI EH TU???" and i swear to God we ran to him and asked for a picture. we did get one but he was in a hurry ahhhdjshfdjjkfsdh. i still couldn't fangirling until now. i mean WE LIVED IN THE SAME HOTEL WITH THEM WHAT THE HELL i just dsjfgjdslhfkdsjdhsfjs then we went back to the hotel fangirling and screaming together. we just couldn't stop talking about it until we slept. it was mindblowing because we have been living in the same country and out of all that time, the time when we were in Bangkok was the time we were be able to meet him and his beautiful, beautifullll wife.
okay, enough fangirling. the next day we went to madame tussauds. another day of fangirling. i finally be able to take a picture with my boyfriend, Mario Maurer. even though it was just a wax figure.
okay, couldn't it be any more obvious that it was a wax figure? haha.
sorry, Einstein. i kinda failed at Physics :P
i have something Leonardo DiCaprio doesn't have. soz.
ok. no more spamming pictures. hahahaha.
after that we went to the Hello Kitty House Cafe and it was sooo KAWAII. had to say that. i just had to, okay? we had a few desserts but it was okay. not as good as the After You Cafe but the cuteness covered it all.
hello kitty, you're so pretty. k-k-k-kawaii~
lol i'm not that good in this flat-lay photography. not yet.
we just had to eat the signature dish in Thailand to complete the vacation. and to be frank, it was quite hard for us to find a Halal restaurant. even if we did, it was not that good. but thanks to Google, we did find one (Yana Restaurant - yes, guyd. i have a restaurant in Thailand. sit down, sit down). we had the Thailand dishes. it was amazing. especially the tomyam. I COMMAND YOU TO TASTE IT IF YOU EVER GO THERE.
all we did was nothing except for shopping. then, shopping and shopping. again and again. lol. but yeah on the last day, we went for swimming. YASSSS. i haven't been swimming for years. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i did. mind you, i am nowhere near a great swimmer. i suck at it. i suck at any sports. all that i can do is stretching. yep. my cousin was a great swimmer so she taught me a few swimming techniques and of course, i failed. the only thing that i could do was the floating, which i have never been able to do before. so i was pretty chuffed with that. so that was all we did that morning. we spent all of our morning at the hotel just before we check out. then we had a little walk around to find some stuffs that we hadn't bought for our family. we also tasted the Coconut Ice Cream YUM. and i had the other ice cream which idk what the name was but IT WAS THE CUTEST ICE CREAM EVER.
the saddest part finally came, guys. we had to go back home. our flight was at 8 PM. and we arrived Singapore in the midnight, 12 AM. the flight back home was better than the first flight. because the flight back home had a lot of movies that I could watch. i couldn't even choose. THERE WAS EVEN HARRY POTTER but i know for sure that i wouldn't be able to finish watching it. in the end, i just watched a movie that i have watched before which is Pitch Perfect. because i couldn't take the risk of cliffhangers. oh, if you were wondering, i went on SIA's flight. not SIA as in Sia who sings Chandelier but SIA - Singapore Airlines. and there was nothing to complain about. the service was good and all.
can i live in airplane forever?
airport at midnight is the best. especially when it is Changi Airport. i could live there.
that was a looooooong post. sorry if i ramble too much but yeah. my favourite part was probably flying. it was my first time. but i guess, everything that we do is first time. oh well. it is sad now that i can only talk about it. i am just hoping that i could study aboard. that would be amazing. pray for me so i could get to study in London or anywhere as long as it is in overseas so we can go for a little bit more adventure together. i love this. i would love to make this blog to a travel blog if i could. but i know for sure that was nowhere near possible. i am just a girl who lives in her own imagination. at least it was as amazing as travel all around the world. haa. i am gonna cry now. goodbye.
Adventure Awaits,
L.
also, sorry for the bad quality or bad techniques of photography haha. i need DSLR. like seriously.
Labels: 2016, travel
#39 - Page 365 of 365.
written on Thursday, December 31, 2015 @ 6:53 PM ✈
well, hello there people. how are you? good? good. okay. now what? NOW WHAT THAT WE HAVE REACH TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR??? seriously. i actually cannot believe that i survived throughout the whole year. i thought i might be dead somewhere in the beginning of the year. phew.
being a dedicated blogger as i am (yeah right), i decided to write a post about my 2012. somehow, i have a lot of things that i wanted to talk about but i do not know where the hell should i begin. so, i am just going to answer some questions that i found from buzzfeed (lol). so yeah hahaha.
1. What did you do this year that you’re proud of?
there is A LOT of things that i did this year that i am proud of. firstly, i decided to step out of my comfort zone. as it was my last year of high school, i thought there was nothing i could lose. i participated in my school drama (THE BEST ONE YET), public speaking, dancing and singing competition or performances (whichever). also, i entered my school's competition (SMKPG GOT TALENT) and i wrote a short story which you can find here in my blog (When Love Collides). and gladly to be said that i won the competition. first place for my category. but the participant in that category is not that a lot so the chances for me winning is quite big hahaha. so that's that.
2. Who did you meet this year that inspired you?
honestly, i did not really meet a lot of new people. but the one that inspired me is probably my friends. being friends with them has showed me that everyone deserves another chance. and no matter if you have done a big mistake, the right people will always be there to accept you in their life. so i must say that i have the best friends i could ever ask for.
3. What did you read that you think bettered you?
i think It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini has made me a better person. and i really, really recommend you to read it because it is such a light reading. it carries quite a heavy topics but it delivers it in a fun way. i like the humour in it. totally laughable. i do not actually think that i have a quite lols for myself while reading. another book that i reread for this year that has bettered me is probably A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. i might have shed a tear or two. also, i started to read the divergent series this year (late, i know) and it is grrrrreat. i am now starting on to read allegiant. which i am excited for.
4. What are songs that you will always hear and think of this year even when you’re listening on some contraption that hasn’t even been invented yet?
if i have been given the chance to list all of my favourite songs, you probably will never see tomorrow. it is never-ending haha. but let us all be real. the biggest hit this year is Hello by Adele and i am pretty sure i will remember 2o15 whenever i listen to that song. other song probably might be R.I.P 2 My Youth by The Neighbourhood. to be quite honest, i listen to that song on repeat for almost a week or so. yep. also that song reminds me about how am i about to enter the real world as the school ends so RIP YOUTH.
5. What were some times that you laughed so hard you could barely breathe?
there are a lot of times that i laughed so hard that i could barely breathe. i even thought i might die for a second there. it is just a lot and i cannot tell which one. but mostly were when i was with my friends. probably family as well. but the last time i laugh so hard that i am completely outta my breath was yesterday, when i was watching tyler oakley's video. well, of course.
6. What were your favorite movies? Not what was good, not what you had to see because of your friends or the media. What were your favorites?
honestly, i didn't see a lot of movies this year. i haven't even watched paper towns and inside out yet. which is pretty sad. but my favourite movie from this year gotta be antman. it is just the best. i did watch pitch perfect 2 but i have to say the movie is pretty dull. meh. so yeah, antman gotta be the best one i have seen for 2015.
7. What are some fears that you had at the beginning of the year that you overcame?
fear of being my own self. fear of performing in front of people because i am scared that people might judge me. but now to think of that, i just do not care anymore. i gotta do what i want to do. just be it. just do it. do not think about other people. it is time for you to shine. JUST DO IT (read: in shia's voice)
8. What were quotes that you loved this year?
"show them all you're not the ordinary type."
–P!ATD
"why fear death just because you know the song will end. is that any reason not to listen?"
–emerly35, Emily is Away
"no one really knows why they are alive until they know what they'd die for."
–Martin Luther King Jr.
"maybe there's more we all could have done, but we just have to let the guilt remind us to do better next time."
–Tobias Eaton.
"life goes on until it doesn't"
–Extraordinary Means.
"i know people come and go but it still hurts when they do."
9. What are ways that you exercised self care?
always, always remind myself to love myself, to choose to be happy. treat myself better. do not hurt myself just because somebody hurt me. that is not the way to do it. everything has a solution. trust God. if it doesn't have solution, it probably wouldn't exist in the first place.
TW: i used to self harm, but now i am 6 months clean. self harm is a not way to escape. it does not worth it to be hurt in such a way . just because it relieves the pain, does not mean your problem will go away. treat yourself like a princess even if nobody treats you that way. you deserve to be treated well.
10. What are things you want to see more of next year?
i do not know what am i expecting. but i just need to see more FAITH IN HUMANITY. sorry if that appeared to be aggressive but yeah. we need faith in humanity. we are living in a dying world with a lot of bad people. however, i believe that good people still exist.
11. What are five things you did that you never thought you’d actually do?
- participate in drama
- singing in public
- participate in dancing
- public speaking
- love myself
12. What were your favorite things this year?
WHOA. A LOT OF THINGS. i cannot even list it. everything in this year probably is my favourite things in this year. despite how bad. it makes me who i am now. whoa deep.
13. What are the most important things you learned this year?
do not put somebody else as your happiness. be happy with no reason. just love yourself when nobody else does. it is okay to make mistake. it is okay to be a human. human makes mistake. the right person will always accept you no matter what. do not judge people for what they do in the past. it is in their past. it does not matter any more. try and choose to be happy. CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. it is important. your self worth is not defined by how people treat you. if they treat you badly, they do not deserve you. i mean, how can you possibly assure that they will love you and take care of you if they do not even know how to treat you like a human being supposed to be treated. be nice to people. be kind. be wise. be whoever you are. remember, just because you act childish, does not mean you are not mature. maturity is defined by how you treat something. and love yourself. just love yourself. have faith.
whoa. i sure did learn a lot this year.
14. What is your favorite photo from this year?
i just cannot choose :p
15. What are five things you want to say to people you love?
- thank you so much for everything.
- thank you for accepting me.
- thank you if you for loving me or ever loved me.
- you are the best.
- may God give you the best and i love you loads :)
16. What are some places where you feel true joy in your life?
BOOK STORE. just book store.
oh wait. how can i forget anywhere with food haih. and not to forget, my room where i spent most of my time being alone.
17. Where do you feel most yourself?
as i just said, my room. whenever i am with myself. whenever i am with my friends. my happy place :)
18. What were your favorite meals?
can we just not?
BECAUSE I CANNOT CHOOSE.
but fish and chips, please. (idk why but i am not keen upon chicken any longer and that is sad).
19. How did you calm yourself in times of stress?
listen to quran recitation perhaps? probably go to youtube, watching some funny videos that can make me laugh away from my stress.
20. What are some compliments that you received that deeply affected you?
"you are gifted."
:)
21. Who are people that you believe are bringing out the best in you?
my friends and family, of course. they are always there to support me to do things that i love. and they are there to advise me every time i needed it. so thanks to them and thanks to God for sending me such good people to be with. through ups and downs.
22. What items of clothing did you buy that felt the most you?
does wristband count as items of clothing? if so, then...
23. What are you excited about leaving behind in 2015?
NO MORE SCHOOL = NO MORE HOMEWORKS YASSSSSSSSSSSSSS
although i am kinda missing school right now. how odd.
24. What are five things that you were hard on yourself about but would never have been hard on a friend if they were experiencing it?
i seriously do not know this one. like i seriously cannot think of one. i wonder what is it. probably i do not realise it?
25. What are the best pieces of advice you heard this year?
if somebody truly loves you, they will not dare to touch you.
think of it like this, like whenever you bought new stuff, for an example, books (how original). most of the time you probably will be very careful when you touch it. or you probably just would not dare to touch it at all because you are afraid if you are going to ruin the book. same goes to people.
"be a better person. whatever happened in the past, let it be and just make it as a lesson. never repeat the same mistake again. be wise. i know you are a nice person. you can be."
it is probably just the normal advice somebody would give to you. but when my chemistry teacher said it, it just hit me in the heart.
"Allah bagi balasan dekat orang jahat. Allah bagi ujian kat orang baik. Aku tau apa yang Allah bagi kau sekarang ni cuma ujian je. sebab kau orang baik."
26. What are the best pieces of advice you gave this year?
"Allah knows what is in every heart. If you truly want it, you ask for it, Allah will give you, InshaAllah. but if you do not get what you want, do not be despair. Allah has something better for you. the best for you, indeed. cause Allah knows."
"kita yakin awak boleh dapat apa yang awak nak kalau Allah kata itu yang terbaik untuk awak. Allah dah tulis cantik cantik jalan cerita kita so jangan risau ye."
"hidup ni tak selalu indah, kan? bukan sebab Allah tak nak bagi kita bahagia tapo Allah simpankan bahagia kita tu maybe untuk benda lain ke kan, kita tak tau.
27. What things have you been putting off doing because you didn’t have time?
i have not been writing in my poetry journal because of spm. so i need to continue it. also, i have not been drawing and colouring for a long time. i kinda miss it.
28. What are some things you’d like to focus and work on in the next year?
i want to focus on my writing for next year. i want to improve my English to become better than they are now. because we can never stop learning, can we? so yeah. i just want to write more and more and more. if possible, i want to write a blog post everyday but it sounds hard. so we'll see.
29. What are the best parts of you that you feel really showed through this year?
i do not really know my best parts. but i think receiving an award as the best English students does count as one, right? hehehe.
30. What are your biggest hopes for 2016?
honestly, i do not really hope that much because as we usually hear is expectations always lead to disappointments. so yeah. no more high expectation. i am just hoping that i will become a better person and everything will come at ease.
whoa. that was a really long post. so i had to limit myself when answering the question. so yeah. we are only a few hours away in leaving 2015. which is pretty sad. i have to admit that i am not ready yet to leave 2015. despite the bad things that happened, it is still the best year that i could ever ask. however, i wish you all will have a blast and shine bright for next year. just believe in yourself :)
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, 2016, reflecting
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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