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46. Books that I Read in 2015
written on Monday, January 25, 2016 @ 3:00 AM
i don't care if it's too late, cause i'm doing it anyways. as you are reading this, i am already on the flight to somewhere else. probably. i put this blog post up on schedule, being a dedicated blogger i am. but i don't have much time to put two blog post on schedule, so instead i just put one. but this is it, my Books that I Read in 2015. because last year i had to sit for a big exams, i don't have much time to read books. but i still had read a few but not as much as i used to during the past year. and this year, my goal is to read a lot of em. and just as a reminder, i probably take a lot of the pictures from WeHeartIt or Google cause i don't have time to take the pictures of the book soz. Also, I wanted to do the Top Books in 2015 but then I thought that I didn't really read that much so why bother? hahaha. the amount books that I've reasd was only 15-16 books only. how embarrassing aha. but yeah, here goes the Books that I have Read in 2015. 1. It's Kind of A Funny Story by Ned Vizzini. 
so far, this was the BEST book that I have read last year and yes, there is a movie for this book. but it still couldn't beat the book. as always, the books are always better than the movie. therefore, do not judge the book by its movie. but for me, both of the book and the movie are good. i recommend you to read this book because this book brings up one of the heaviest topics; mental illness. however, as what the title says, it's kind of a story. i just love everything about it. no complains for this book. it might be the first on the Top Books of 2015 that I read.
2. Extraordinary Means by Robyn Schneider.
well, as for this book, it might be the second best book that i have read last year. if you LOVE to read The Fault in Our Stars, this might be it. some of the people said that the story is similar to TFIOS, but it is still different to me. and it is still AMAZING. this has to be one of the Must-Read books of all time. YOU WON'T REGRET IT. trust me.
3. Divergent Series by Veronica Roth.
the first time i watched the movie, i know for sure that i have to read this book and i did. but i only read the first two books last year and managed to finished the series by this year (except for Four) and i tell you, it is amazing. and to me, i love the first movie but when i started to watch Insurgent movie after I read the book, i feel like there is a lot missing to it. so i suggest for you to read the book before judging any of that. i have watched the Allegiant trailer and it was okay. I don't really get the story but the movie hasn't come out yet so I can't say much. but all in all, I am glad that I read this series.
4. Kacau by Ariff Adly.
okay this one might appear a little bit different than any other books because it's a Malay novel. actually i haven't really read a lot of Malay books. not until last year, when one of my friend tell me to do so and I did. so far, i didn't regret it. thanks to him for recommending me this book. this is also in the top books, not to me but to others as well. and i tell you, if you haven't read this yet. i urge you to do so because this book is just damn amazing. it is a horror story and it does what it tells. it really gave me that haunting feeling while i'm reading this book and after i read the book. this was the second Fixi novel that I read after Gelap by the same author and it is a s equal as amazing. and that is when I started to fall in love with Fixi novels.
5. Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell.
i know i'm a little bit too late for this but you actually never really late in reading books lol. but this is one of the best that I have read last year. it is just amazing and beautiful. i love the different perspectives that this book gives. and after you read this, you can never not fall in love with Park. if you haven't read this yet, you just have to.
i think i am just going to talk about the top books that i read last year and continue the list without giving any commentary (if that's what you call it). sorry but i am really rushing out of time. i can't really give an in-depth top of 15-6 books in one post. and i'm quite sure none of you will read it any ways. but yeah. here goes another 10 books that i read last year.
6. Since You've Been Gone by Morgan Matson.
7. the DUFF by Kody Keplinger.
and yes, it has a movie as well but mind you, the movie is far different from the book.
8. Paper Towns by John Green.
9. In This Way I Was Saved by Brian Deleeuw.
10. The Edge of Falling by Rebecca Serle.
11. Gelap by Ariff Adly.
12. Asrama by Muhammad Fatrim.
13. Catatan MatLuthfi by MatLuthfi.
14. Tempestuous by Kim Askew & Amy Helmes.
and there goes the list of my books. i hope i will read more and more books this year. i wouldn't want to set t as a resolution because you know how it's going to end so hahaha. however, i really recommend you to read the Top 5 books.
Carpe Librum,
L.
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written on Thursday, December 31, 2015 @ 6:53 PM
well, hello there people. how are you? good? good. okay. now what? NOW WHAT THAT WE HAVE REACH TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR??? seriously. i actually cannot believe that i survived throughout the whole year. i thought i might be dead somewhere in the beginning of the year. phew.
being a dedicated blogger as i am (yeah right), i decided to write a post about my 2012. somehow, i have a lot of things that i wanted to talk about but i do not know where the hell should i begin. so, i am just going to answer some questions that i found from buzzfeed (lol). so yeah hahaha.
1. What did you do this year that you’re proud of?
there is A LOT of things that i did this year that i am proud of. firstly, i decided to step out of my comfort zone. as it was my last year of high school, i thought there was nothing i could lose. i participated in my school drama (THE BEST ONE YET), public speaking, dancing and singing competition or performances (whichever). also, i entered my school's competition (SMKPG GOT TALENT) and i wrote a short story which you can find here in my blog (When Love Collides). and gladly to be said that i won the competition. first place for my category. but the participant in that category is not that a lot so the chances for me winning is quite big hahaha. so that's that.
2. Who did you meet this year that inspired you?
honestly, i did not really meet a lot of new people. but the one that inspired me is probably my friends. being friends with them has showed me that everyone deserves another chance. and no matter if you have done a big mistake, the right people will always be there to accept you in their life. so i must say that i have the best friends i could ever ask for.
3. What did you read that you think bettered you?
i think It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini has made me a better person. and i really, really recommend you to read it because it is such a light reading. it carries quite a heavy topics but it delivers it in a fun way. i like the humour in it. totally laughable. i do not actually think that i have a quite lols for myself while reading. another book that i reread for this year that has bettered me is probably A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. i might have shed a tear or two. also, i started to read the divergent series this year (late, i know) and it is grrrrreat. i am now starting on to read allegiant. which i am excited for.
4. What are songs that you will always hear and think of this year even when you’re listening on some contraption that hasn’t even been invented yet?
if i have been given the chance to list all of my favourite songs, you probably will never see tomorrow. it is never-ending haha. but let us all be real. the biggest hit this year is Hello by Adele and i am pretty sure i will remember 2o15 whenever i listen to that song. other song probably might be R.I.P 2 My Youth by The Neighbourhood. to be quite honest, i listen to that song on repeat for almost a week or so. yep. also that song reminds me about how am i about to enter the real world as the school ends so RIP YOUTH.
5. What were some times that you laughed so hard you could barely breathe?
there are a lot of times that i laughed so hard that i could barely breathe. i even thought i might die for a second there. it is just a lot and i cannot tell which one. but mostly were when i was with my friends. probably family as well. but the last time i laugh so hard that i am completely outta my breath was yesterday, when i was watching tyler oakley's video. well, of course.
6. What were your favorite movies? Not what was good, not what you had to see because of your friends or the media. What were your favorites?
honestly, i didn't see a lot of movies this year. i haven't even watched paper towns and inside out yet. which is pretty sad. but my favourite movie from this year gotta be antman. it is just the best. i did watch pitch perfect 2 but i have to say the movie is pretty dull. meh. so yeah, antman gotta be the best one i have seen for 2015.
7. What are some fears that you had at the beginning of the year that you overcame?
fear of being my own self. fear of performing in front of people because i am scared that people might judge me. but now to think of that, i just do not care anymore. i gotta do what i want to do. just be it. just do it. do not think about other people. it is time for you to shine. JUST DO IT (read: in shia's voice)
8. What were quotes that you loved this year?
"show them all you're not the ordinary type."
–P!ATD
"why fear death just because you know the song will end. is that any reason not to listen?"
–emerly35, Emily is Away
"no one really knows why they are alive until they know what they'd die for."
–Martin Luther King Jr.
"maybe there's more we all could have done, but we just have to let the guilt remind us to do better next time."
–Tobias Eaton.
"life goes on until it doesn't"
–Extraordinary Means.
"i know people come and go but it still hurts when they do."
9. What are ways that you exercised self care?
always, always remind myself to love myself, to choose to be happy. treat myself better. do not hurt myself just because somebody hurt me. that is not the way to do it. everything has a solution. trust God. if it doesn't have solution, it probably wouldn't exist in the first place.
TW: i used to self harm, but now i am 6 months clean. self harm is a not way to escape. it does not worth it to be hurt in such a way . just because it relieves the pain, does not mean your problem will go away. treat yourself like a princess even if nobody treats you that way. you deserve to be treated well.
10. What are things you want to see more of next year?
i do not know what am i expecting. but i just need to see more FAITH IN HUMANITY. sorry if that appeared to be aggressive but yeah. we need faith in humanity. we are living in a dying world with a lot of bad people. however, i believe that good people still exist.
11. What are five things you did that you never thought you’d actually do?
- participate in drama
- singing in public
- participate in dancing
- public speaking
- love myself
12. What were your favorite things this year?
WHOA. A LOT OF THINGS. i cannot even list it. everything in this year probably is my favourite things in this year. despite how bad. it makes me who i am now. whoa deep.
13. What are the most important things you learned this year?
do not put somebody else as your happiness. be happy with no reason. just love yourself when nobody else does. it is okay to make mistake. it is okay to be a human. human makes mistake. the right person will always accept you no matter what. do not judge people for what they do in the past. it is in their past. it does not matter any more. try and choose to be happy. CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. it is important. your self worth is not defined by how people treat you. if they treat you badly, they do not deserve you. i mean, how can you possibly assure that they will love you and take care of you if they do not even know how to treat you like a human being supposed to be treated. be nice to people. be kind. be wise. be whoever you are. remember, just because you act childish, does not mean you are not mature. maturity is defined by how you treat something. and love yourself. just love yourself. have faith.
whoa. i sure did learn a lot this year.
14. What is your favorite photo from this year?
i just cannot choose :p
15. What are five things you want to say to people you love?
- thank you so much for everything.
- thank you for accepting me.
- thank you if you for loving me or ever loved me.
- you are the best.
- may God give you the best and i love you loads :)
16. What are some places where you feel true joy in your life?
BOOK STORE. just book store.
oh wait. how can i forget anywhere with food haih. and not to forget, my room where i spent most of my time being alone.
17. Where do you feel most yourself?
as i just said, my room. whenever i am with myself. whenever i am with my friends. my happy place :)
18. What were your favorite meals?
can we just not?
BECAUSE I CANNOT CHOOSE.
but fish and chips, please. (idk why but i am not keen upon chicken any longer and that is sad).
19. How did you calm yourself in times of stress?
listen to quran recitation perhaps? probably go to youtube, watching some funny videos that can make me laugh away from my stress.
20. What are some compliments that you received that deeply affected you?
"you are gifted."
:)
21. Who are people that you believe are bringing out the best in you?
my friends and family, of course. they are always there to support me to do things that i love. and they are there to advise me every time i needed it. so thanks to them and thanks to God for sending me such good people to be with. through ups and downs.
22. What items of clothing did you buy that felt the most you?
does wristband count as items of clothing? if so, then...
23. What are you excited about leaving behind in 2015?
NO MORE SCHOOL = NO MORE HOMEWORKS YASSSSSSSSSSSSSS
although i am kinda missing school right now. how odd.
24. What are five things that you were hard on yourself about but would never have been hard on a friend if they were experiencing it?
i seriously do not know this one. like i seriously cannot think of one. i wonder what is it. probably i do not realise it?
25. What are the best pieces of advice you heard this year?
if somebody truly loves you, they will not dare to touch you.
think of it like this, like whenever you bought new stuff, for an example, books (how original). most of the time you probably will be very careful when you touch it. or you probably just would not dare to touch it at all because you are afraid if you are going to ruin the book. same goes to people.
"be a better person. whatever happened in the past, let it be and just make it as a lesson. never repeat the same mistake again. be wise. i know you are a nice person. you can be."
it is probably just the normal advice somebody would give to you. but when my chemistry teacher said it, it just hit me in the heart.
"Allah bagi balasan dekat orang jahat. Allah bagi ujian kat orang baik. Aku tau apa yang Allah bagi kau sekarang ni cuma ujian je. sebab kau orang baik."
26. What are the best pieces of advice you gave this year?
"Allah knows what is in every heart. If you truly want it, you ask for it, Allah will give you, InshaAllah. but if you do not get what you want, do not be despair. Allah has something better for you. the best for you, indeed. cause Allah knows."
"kita yakin awak boleh dapat apa yang awak nak kalau Allah kata itu yang terbaik untuk awak. Allah dah tulis cantik cantik jalan cerita kita so jangan risau ye."
"hidup ni tak selalu indah, kan? bukan sebab Allah tak nak bagi kita bahagia tapo Allah simpankan bahagia kita tu maybe untuk benda lain ke kan, kita tak tau.
27. What things have you been putting off doing because you didn’t have time?
i have not been writing in my poetry journal because of spm. so i need to continue it. also, i have not been drawing and colouring for a long time. i kinda miss it.
28. What are some things you’d like to focus and work on in the next year?
i want to focus on my writing for next year. i want to improve my English to become better than they are now. because we can never stop learning, can we? so yeah. i just want to write more and more and more. if possible, i want to write a blog post everyday but it sounds hard. so we'll see.
29. What are the best parts of you that you feel really showed through this year?
i do not really know my best parts. but i think receiving an award as the best English students does count as one, right? hehehe.
30. What are your biggest hopes for 2016?
honestly, i do not really hope that much because as we usually hear is expectations always lead to disappointments. so yeah. no more high expectation. i am just hoping that i will become a better person and everything will come at ease.
whoa. that was a really long post. so i had to limit myself when answering the question. so yeah. we are only a few hours away in leaving 2015. which is pretty sad. i have to admit that i am not ready yet to leave 2015. despite the bad things that happened, it is still the best year that i could ever ask. however, i wish you all will have a blast and shine bright for next year. just believe in yourself :)
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, 2016, reflecting 0 comment[s] | back to top#30 - SPM IS OVER
written on Tuesday, December 8, 2015 @ 11:56 PM
okay so spm is over. now what?
to be honest, it is hard for me to fathom the fact that i have ended high school. whoa. time does fly, aye. thinking about the world outside school really gives me an eerie feeling. to think about it, i can barely handle the pressure in high school so how the *beep* am i going to handle the real world? but that is it. we have to face it, so then we can finally overcome our fear. am i right, or am i right? hahaha.
my spm ended on the 7th of December, which is a week later than the other students in my school. sucks, tell me about it. we had to learn that one particular subject throughout the whole week. we had no choice anyway. so i guess the last test went quite well? i don't even know because most of the time, my mind was filled with the thoughts of what am i going to do after the test, which is a lot of things. aaaaand i ended up doing nothing, just binge watching some youtube videos. what a life. i also have some books to read (when i said some, there are actually 8 books eagerly waiting to be read) yep. yep. i'm all about that books.
right after the test ended, my class teacher, along with my classmates and I went to have a somewhat picnic(?) i don't even know. what i do know is we had a lot of fun and food. food matters. being the 'normal' youth as we all are, we took tons of picture. so i'm just going to insert some of the pictures, if you excuse me.
   
i'm not going to upload all of the pictures though but yeah. most of us were squinting because it was too bright and sunny. protect your eyes (and skin), lads.
so now, i don't know what should i do. well, i want to find a job but i don't know where to start. well, being introvert and socially awkward simultaneously are not the best combination, i suppose. i'm just that bad in talking with people. like seriously. i stutter a lot. i have literally 1% self-confidence, or 2.5% if i'm lucky. other than that, meh. i really wish i can be a blogger as my profession. or fangirl. because that's what i do best, not interacting with people in real life.
i think that is it. i don't have anything to say. so long and good night *sings Helena by MCR* hahah good byeeeeeeeeee xx
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, favourite, friends, happiness, happy, life, school, thoughts 0 comment[s] | back to top29. leaving high school.
written on Saturday, October 31, 2015 @ 10:31 PM
just a reminder. this might be a very lengthy post (and a very emosh one). you do not have to read it if you do not want to. but BRACE YOURSELF. do you know that feeling when you're reading, that you don't want to end the book but you need and dying to know what the ending is? i feel the same way about leaving high school. i admit that there comes the time when i could not wait to leave high school and be free from all the tension and pressure. but now that i come towards the end of it, i realise that i actually do not want this to end. i do not want to leave high school. i am not yet ready to face the so-called real world. okay, think about it. we are going to leave the same routine that we have been doing for almost 11 years. i think i might have some kind of a love hate relationship with school. because, let's be real. leaving homeworks. BIG YES. leaving friends (or people). NONONONONOOOOO. i think the reason i do not want to leave high school is mainly because i do not want to leave people. i fear of being forgotten and forgetting. i hate it when i forget people because i know what is it like to be forgotten. we have been building friendships and relationships for almost 5 years. the scariest bit of leaving high school is that you do not know if those people you have been together with for 5 years are going to stay or just be gone. are they the one, or the one that got away? that is why people say, the end is the beginning. once we end high school, we begin to know who has God sent to us to stay in our life and the ones who are not. the ones who matter to us the most might be not that kind of person to us anymore. i would want to post this on my instagram but the caption would be a never-ending scroll. also, i would love to do an appreciation post to all of the people that mean the most to me but that would be impossible to do so. instead, i just do a blog post instead.  to those who i knew since kindergarten or primary school, or the ones who i knew since the beginning of high school, the ones who i used to love or hate or both, the ones who i just got close to this year, the ones who i just got to know (in the last two weeks of school) although we have been in the same school for 5 years or less than that, the ones who i fangirl with, the ones who share the same interest as mine but i just know about it in the last week of school (ugh sucks), the ones who i usually look from a distance and do not have the guts to talk to, to the teacher who is like my best friend now, the ones who used to be my friend to acquaintances to stranger (or vice versa), the ones who i do not talk to anymore but i used to be close (and might have some of my secrets), even to those who i barely talk to (or never have i ever) and not to forget to those who i exchange glances and smiles once in a while. there are a lot of other people who i would like to mention but i would need an eternity to do so. i hope those people who read this know who they are without me mentioning their name. i just want you to know that all of you matter to me. no matter if you are still in my life or not. our path crossed with reasons. God has written the story of our lives without flaws. God has sent all of you into my life and God has sent me into your lives, with reasons. either as a lesson or a blessing. this may be too cheesy or it does not even matter to you. some of you might gag reading this because let's be real, we will move on from this and probably another year from now, it would not matter to us any longer. but i just want to talk about it as long as it is still matter to me. i want to embrace it as long as it is still in my mind. because it has become a part of my life and i cannot not talk about it. this is the story that i am going to tell to my child later. this is the story of my life and i do not want to forget it. as worse as it can get, it is still the best memory that i have and i will take it with me in the pocket of my mind wherever i go. it does feel good though, leaving high school. no more homeworks. no more studying stuffs that we are not eager to know. no more assembly. no more having to wake up early. but leaving high school also means, no more seeing your best friends five days a week or maybe more. no more screaming your teacher's name and wouldn't stop talking about how beautiful she can get each day, everyday. no more stupid inside jokes with your friend while the teacher is teaching. no more gossips. no more creeping and fangirling to your crush. no more hiding your classmates' stuffs. no more copying your friend's homework. no more horror story-telling by your teacher. no more EVERYTHING. and that is sad. talking about this just can make me hear my heart breaking louder and clearer than before. to the teachers, i could not thank you enough for your supports. all the sacrifices yet we still wouldn't listen to all of you. sorry for being such a nuisance. thanks for being our best friends, sisters, brothers, and parents in school. without all of you, i wouldn't be where i am right now. and to my english teachers and all of my other teachers, 
this is for all of you. thank you for giving me support and inspire me to get better and do better each day.
to the 2015's alumnus of smkpg, i am glad that we were born in the same year. i am sorry for all of my wrongdoings, either vaguely done or not. i could not thank all of you enough for entering my life. even the little things matter. probably your smile had made my day before. i may not have given all of you a lot to remember. and i cannot promise you that i won't forget you because at some point in my life, i might will. and you might forget me as well. but i hope to God that i won't. just remember that, at some point in my life, you guys are the reason that i am still here. to the juniors, please behave. create more memories because you are guiding your own story. it will be something that you will remember in the little side of your mind. do not burden the teachers. do not be mad at the teachers when they scold you because they won't be mad at you for nothing. they are doing what they are doing because that is what they are supposed to do. appreciate them. thank them. love them. be good. be kind. and for the drama people next year, you can do better without having to be trees to win ;) all in all, good luck for spm and i believe in all of us. we can do this. may the best batch succeed.
Carpe Librum,
L.
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written on Saturday, June 6, 2015 @ 3:56 PM
before i could scream to myself, i know. i haven't been posting for quite awhile. but that is because i am just lazy. no reason needed. haish. futhermore, i have a lot to tell just too hard to put it into words. i am still stuck with my short stories and all. i think i have to start over a new one. i am feeling a little bit fantasy inspired haha idk. but anyway, i went to Big Bad Wolf Book Sale last Tuesday i guess with my favourite little one {Amira Farain} hehe. first of all, it was a fun day. it was a real unexpected fun day. you know the day when you just plan what you are going to do but it turned out pretty awesome? yeah. THAT kind of day. big bad wolf was awesome. i wish i could go there again but i am quite broke at the moment so HAH till then, see you next year mr wolfy *wipes tears dramatically* hahaha but seriously. it was amazing. i bought FOUR books for RM30 only! How crazy is that? normally, i could get only one book for RM30. Big Bad Wolf saved my life as i haven't been buying new books lately. but yay! 
we fangirled like crazy people might think we escaped from the asylum or something...
all because of books.
yep.
after that, we went to JBCC because we planned to eat dinner outside. so we walked around together. and then, we bumped into these guys...
a day full of ma faves awh hahahaha oh yeah Amira and I were wearing the same sweater hehehe #twinning4lyf. okay back to the topic hahaha, well we knew that the guys were there and i was kinda hoping that we would meet or what. then, as we were window shopping, suddenly they came up to us. i guess you can say i was surprise i nearly had a heart attack. how very dramatic of me. but really though.
after that, we talked for awhile and took selfie {obviously!} for a bit and thennnnnnn i met my cousin. see what i mean? favourite people. Amira and I then went to Bath & Body Works. like always, we fangirled a lot. we smelt almost everything in the shop before my cousin came in and told me to pick anything cheap hahaha so i picked the Mad About You fragrance mist. hahaha. she paid for it though. thanks kak nadiiii <3
we went to dinner before we went home hehe it was seriously such a fun day. thanks to ma favourite people! i looooooooove you guys so much <3 i smiled the whole through writing this blog post. even thinking about it makes me happy. idk sometimes the simplest thing in life can actually make you happy. so do whatever you want, you might create great memories with it, right? so, why not? ;)
Carpe Librum,
L.
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