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40. Monday Blues: rambling
written on Monday, January 11, 2016 @ 11:03 PM
the cat says hi. i lied. cats can't talk. the cat just said meow. awkz.
that is it. i am going to call my monday's post as monday blues HAH but most of you might have thought that i am going to complain everything about monday. instead, i am going to post some positive stuffs on monday to spread some positive vibes. yeah right. i might going to complain about something on the inside in about two minutes from now. not that you guys know mueheheh k i'll try my best not to, okay?
okay here is the plan:
i am going to post at least 2-3 posts a week. and my plan is that i am going to have friday as my #fangirlfriday section since i have been wanting to talk about my favourite youtubers and fictional characters and stuffs. yo, how cool is that? SO COOL. but might be so lame to most of you. god, i am such a freak. oh yeah and and andddd i am going to have a section every first week of the month called Friday I'm in Love and i will be talking about my favourites for the month before that. get it? does that make any sort of sense at all? it is kinda like all the beauty gurus do in their channel but instead of beauty stuffs that i know nothing about, i am going to be talking about things that i know. i don't want to be some beauty gurus wannabe or something like that. so not cool.
sounds like a good plan, eh? but let's see how long will it last until we will all laugh about it by the end of this month. hah.
the thing is i really love blogging because i just can write stuffs and ramble about a lot of things. fun fact: i have been blogging since 2011. my first url was block-my-blog.blogspot.com HAH HOW LAME. i was 13 years old back then. mind you, i was good at writing but the editing bit was... very... i don't know. ew? i remember that i used to have a bright purple background. ugh. and a lot of highlights and colourful text and also "fancy" fonts. ugh. i cringe to the thought of that. ergh.
and by the time i was 14(?) i guess... i began to become better at editing. i knew how to edit html and stuffs. but by the time i was 15, i was busy with being 15 LOL and i abandoned this blog for quite a long time and i decided to come back last year. and now, here i am. blogging some random stuffs.
to be true, i was actually inspired by zoella, poppy deyes, hannah maggs, velvetgh0st and a lot of other bloggers that write really good posts. and here i am, doing the opposite of that. i will try my best to improve my writing. i can feel like my writing style is so messy and IT HURT *miranda's voice*
sometimes i think that maybe i do this because i really wanted to make a youtube video BUT i am just awkward and don't have confidence and everything that's bad hahaha. wait. i was supposed to spread some positivity ah danggit. never mind. i am a human. okay, continue... see, i kinda make my blog like a youtube account with all the favourite stuffs and sh--akalaka~ and i like it. i love how it is now. i'll try to make it better though.
okay, move along. let's talk about last week. how was yours? mine was the best i could ever ask for. and today is also a good, good day that i need to remember when i have a bad day. last week, i had a sleepover with my best friend for two days. i've learned how to play ukulele and now i need to put ukulele as one of my birthday wish list that is only known by me hah. might make a post about it later because why not. it is just fun. talking about something that you love. the love towards it will just grow, am i right laddies?
so yeah, we watched a lot of youtube videos and movies, of course. a sleepover cannot be done without movies. we even stayed up all night, cracking up to tyler oakley's video. not to forget mytoecold's. god, i just love youtube. thank you to the Creator that created the creator that has created youtube. haz. and we watched the saddest movie ever. we even held each other and bawling our eyes out. it was rather horrid, i tell you. as for today, i went out with ma galz da soul sistazzz ah yiss~ we just hang out together since the school is over and we haven't been seeing each other for a long time. all we did was eat. and eat. talk talk talk. laugh. eat. and go back home to our natural habitat with our natural habit of doing nothing and being lifeless on repeat day by day until the day our results come out. hah. sad, sad. i know. but oh well.
whew, do i ramble about a lot of things. so yeah. i hope it worth the read. thanks for spending your time reading this. love yaaaa *sends a virtual hug - but to the girls only* see you in the next post for this week. toodles~
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: happy, monday blues, ramble
#30 - SPM IS OVER
written on Tuesday, December 8, 2015 @ 11:56 PM
okay so spm is over. now what?
to be honest, it is hard for me to fathom the fact that i have ended high school. whoa. time does fly, aye. thinking about the world outside school really gives me an eerie feeling. to think about it, i can barely handle the pressure in high school so how the *beep* am i going to handle the real world? but that is it. we have to face it, so then we can finally overcome our fear. am i right, or am i right? hahaha.
my spm ended on the 7th of December, which is a week later than the other students in my school. sucks, tell me about it. we had to learn that one particular subject throughout the whole week. we had no choice anyway. so i guess the last test went quite well? i don't even know because most of the time, my mind was filled with the thoughts of what am i going to do after the test, which is a lot of things. aaaaand i ended up doing nothing, just binge watching some youtube videos. what a life. i also have some books to read (when i said some, there are actually 8 books eagerly waiting to be read) yep. yep. i'm all about that books.
right after the test ended, my class teacher, along with my classmates and I went to have a somewhat picnic(?) i don't even know. what i do know is we had a lot of fun and food. food matters. being the 'normal' youth as we all are, we took tons of picture. so i'm just going to insert some of the pictures, if you excuse me.
i'm not going to upload all of the pictures though but yeah. most of us were squinting because it was too bright and sunny. protect your eyes (and skin), lads.
so now, i don't know what should i do. well, i want to find a job but i don't know where to start. well, being introvert and socially awkward simultaneously are not the best combination, i suppose. i'm just that bad in talking with people. like seriously. i stutter a lot. i have literally 1% self-confidence, or 2.5% if i'm lucky. other than that, meh. i really wish i can be a blogger as my profession. or fangirl. because that's what i do best, not interacting with people in real life.
i think that is it. i don't have anything to say. so long and good night *sings Helena by MCR* hahah good byeeeeeeeeee xx
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, favourite, friends, happiness, happy, life, school, thoughts
26. Big Bad Wolf Johor.
written on Saturday, June 6, 2015 @ 3:56 PM
before i could scream to myself, i know. i haven't been posting for quite awhile. but that is because i am just lazy. no reason needed. haish. futhermore, i have a lot to tell just too hard to put it into words. i am still stuck with my short stories and all. i think i have to start over a new one. i am feeling a little bit fantasy inspired haha idk.
but anyway, i went to Big Bad Wolf Book Sale last Tuesday i guess with my favourite little one {Amira Farain} hehe. first of all, it was a fun day. it was a real unexpected fun day. you know the day when you just plan what you are going to do but it turned out pretty awesome? yeah. THAT kind of day.
big bad wolf was awesome. i wish i could go there again but i am quite broke at the moment so HAH till then, see you next year mr wolfy *wipes tears dramatically* hahaha but seriously. it was amazing. i bought FOUR books for RM30 only! How crazy is that? normally, i could get only one book for RM30. Big Bad Wolf saved my life as i haven't been buying new books lately. but yay!
we fangirled like crazy people might think we escaped from the asylum or something...
all because of books.
yep.
after that, we went to JBCC because we planned to eat dinner outside. so we walked around together. and then, we bumped into these guys...
a day full of ma faves awh hahahaha oh yeah Amira and I were wearing the same sweater hehehe #twinning4lyf. okay back to the topic hahaha, well we knew that the guys were there and i was kinda hoping that we would meet or what. then, as we were window shopping, suddenly they came up to us. i guess you can say i was surprise i nearly had a heart attack. how very dramatic of me. but really though.
after that, we talked for awhile and took selfie {obviously!} for a bit and thennnnnnn i met my cousin. see what i mean? favourite people. Amira and I then went to Bath & Body Works. like always, we fangirled a lot. we smelt almost everything in the shop before my cousin came in and told me to pick anything cheap hahaha so i picked the Mad About You fragrance mist. hahaha. she paid for it though. thanks kak nadiiii <3
we went to dinner before we went home hehe it was seriously such a fun day. thanks to ma favourite people! i looooooooove you guys so much <3 i smiled the whole through writing this blog post. even thinking about it makes me happy. idk sometimes the simplest thing in life can actually make you happy. so do whatever you want, you might create great memories with it, right? so, why not? ;)
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, bbw, big bad wolf, book, family, favourite, feelings, friends, happiness, happy, memories
21. it's okay not to be okay.
written on Saturday, January 17, 2015 @ 12:07 AM
is it okay not to be okay?
we are humans. we have mixed feelings. we have our ups and downs. so it's okay not to be okay. feel however you feel. cry your eyes out, if that'll make you feel at least a little bit better. other people can't tell what we should happy. we don't know what awaits in the future. we won't always be happy. we could be happy today, but completely miserable the next day.
you should be grateful
you have everything, what do you mean you're not happy?
you shouldn't be sad, there's other people who have it worse.
STOP! you're making it worse.
it's normal to feel down sometimes. we're human after all. so stop telling people to not feel sad because they have a better life. shut up. you are not them. you are you, and your life is different from other people. we already have enough days of wearing mask to cover up the sadness, to hide our feelings by faking a smile. isn't it ridiculous? like we are not allowed to feel other things other than happy. screw what other people who told you what to do or what to feel. they are not walking in your shoes.
we sure can be happy again. of course, we can. we will always try our hardest to be happy again. sing your favourite song out loud. draw what you feel. reread your favourite book. take a walk in the park. dance your heart out (though you don't know how to dance). do more of what makes you happy. even if it's just a little thing. sometimes the little things can make us the happiest. still, it's hard to feel okay again after spent most of our times in darkness. but eventually, we will find the light. it's up to us, it's our choice to choose if we want to be happy again or vice versa.
You the only person alive who holds the key to your healin'.
ignore what other people say. they don't know a thing about us. and they barely knew what we've been through. of course, there's a lot of other people who have it worse, but different people have different capabilities. our mind can cope different things. if you're happy then you're lucky but you don't have to say mean things to others. just because you're happy, you can let other people down.
heh. i don't know why. i just got an idea for a blog post when i was listening to who you are by Jessie J. the title is from the lyrics. sorry for a short (kind of) blog post and sorry if any of these are a bit harsh. if you don't agree with what i said, it's alright. we have completely different opinion.anyways, i think i'm going to make a short fanfiction ;) idk yet. but i already have the ideas though! so wait for it :D
to those who are happy, stay happy and be happy that when other people look at you, they'll feel happy as well. to those who are not, darling, you'll be okay. you can make through this. you are strong. there is a brighter day for us, it just come out a little late because it'll be the best day for us <3
the rainbow always comes out after a long and heavy storm. stay the strongest version of you.
Carpe Librum,
L.
photo credits to WeHeartIt.
and some of the words are lyrics heheh <3
Labels: feelings, happy, life, sad, thoughts
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40. Monday Blues: rambling
written on Monday, January 11, 2016 @ 11:03 PM ✈
the cat says hi. i lied. cats can't talk. the cat just said meow. awkz.
that is it. i am going to call my monday's post as monday blues HAH but most of you might have thought that i am going to complain everything about monday. instead, i am going to post some positive stuffs on monday to spread some positive vibes. yeah right. i might going to complain about something on the inside in about two minutes from now. not that you guys know mueheheh k i'll try my best not to, okay?
okay here is the plan:
i am going to post at least 2-3 posts a week. and my plan is that i am going to have friday as my #fangirlfriday section since i have been wanting to talk about my favourite youtubers and fictional characters and stuffs. yo, how cool is that? SO COOL. but might be so lame to most of you. god, i am such a freak. oh yeah and and andddd i am going to have a section every first week of the month called Friday I'm in Love and i will be talking about my favourites for the month before that. get it? does that make any sort of sense at all? it is kinda like all the beauty gurus do in their channel but instead of beauty stuffs that i know nothing about, i am going to be talking about things that i know. i don't want to be some beauty gurus wannabe or something like that. so not cool.
sounds like a good plan, eh? but let's see how long will it last until we will all laugh about it by the end of this month. hah.
the thing is i really love blogging because i just can write stuffs and ramble about a lot of things. fun fact: i have been blogging since 2011. my first url was block-my-blog.blogspot.com HAH HOW LAME. i was 13 years old back then. mind you, i was good at writing but the editing bit was... very... i don't know. ew? i remember that i used to have a bright purple background. ugh. and a lot of highlights and colourful text and also "fancy" fonts. ugh. i cringe to the thought of that. ergh.
and by the time i was 14(?) i guess... i began to become better at editing. i knew how to edit html and stuffs. but by the time i was 15, i was busy with being 15 LOL and i abandoned this blog for quite a long time and i decided to come back last year. and now, here i am. blogging some random stuffs.
to be true, i was actually inspired by zoella, poppy deyes, hannah maggs, velvetgh0st and a lot of other bloggers that write really good posts. and here i am, doing the opposite of that. i will try my best to improve my writing. i can feel like my writing style is so messy and IT HURT *miranda's voice*
sometimes i think that maybe i do this because i really wanted to make a youtube video BUT i am just awkward and don't have confidence and everything that's bad hahaha. wait. i was supposed to spread some positivity ah danggit. never mind. i am a human. okay, continue... see, i kinda make my blog like a youtube account with all the favourite stuffs and sh--akalaka~ and i like it. i love how it is now. i'll try to make it better though.
okay, move along. let's talk about last week. how was yours? mine was the best i could ever ask for. and today is also a good, good day that i need to remember when i have a bad day. last week, i had a sleepover with my best friend for two days. i've learned how to play ukulele and now i need to put ukulele as one of my birthday wish list that is only known by me hah. might make a post about it later because why not. it is just fun. talking about something that you love. the love towards it will just grow, am i right laddies?
so yeah, we watched a lot of youtube videos and movies, of course. a sleepover cannot be done without movies. we even stayed up all night, cracking up to tyler oakley's video. not to forget mytoecold's. god, i just love youtube. thank you to the Creator that created the creator that has created youtube. haz. and we watched the saddest movie ever. we even held each other and bawling our eyes out. it was rather horrid, i tell you. as for today, i went out with ma galz da soul sistazzz ah yiss~ we just hang out together since the school is over and we haven't been seeing each other for a long time. all we did was eat. and eat. talk talk talk. laugh. eat. and go back home to our natural habitat with our natural habit of doing nothing and being lifeless on repeat day by day until the day our results come out. hah. sad, sad. i know. but oh well.
whew, do i ramble about a lot of things. so yeah. i hope it worth the read. thanks for spending your time reading this. love yaaaa *sends a virtual hug - but to the girls only* see you in the next post for this week. toodles~
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: happy, monday blues, ramble
#30 - SPM IS OVER
written on Tuesday, December 8, 2015 @ 11:56 PM ✈
okay so spm is over. now what?
to be honest, it is hard for me to fathom the fact that i have ended high school. whoa. time does fly, aye. thinking about the world outside school really gives me an eerie feeling. to think about it, i can barely handle the pressure in high school so how the *beep* am i going to handle the real world? but that is it. we have to face it, so then we can finally overcome our fear. am i right, or am i right? hahaha.
my spm ended on the 7th of December, which is a week later than the other students in my school. sucks, tell me about it. we had to learn that one particular subject throughout the whole week. we had no choice anyway. so i guess the last test went quite well? i don't even know because most of the time, my mind was filled with the thoughts of what am i going to do after the test, which is a lot of things. aaaaand i ended up doing nothing, just binge watching some youtube videos. what a life. i also have some books to read (when i said some, there are actually 8 books eagerly waiting to be read) yep. yep. i'm all about that books.
right after the test ended, my class teacher, along with my classmates and I went to have a somewhat picnic(?) i don't even know. what i do know is we had a lot of fun and food. food matters. being the 'normal' youth as we all are, we took tons of picture. so i'm just going to insert some of the pictures, if you excuse me.
i'm not going to upload all of the pictures though but yeah. most of us were squinting because it was too bright and sunny. protect your eyes (and skin), lads.
so now, i don't know what should i do. well, i want to find a job but i don't know where to start. well, being introvert and socially awkward simultaneously are not the best combination, i suppose. i'm just that bad in talking with people. like seriously. i stutter a lot. i have literally 1% self-confidence, or 2.5% if i'm lucky. other than that, meh. i really wish i can be a blogger as my profession. or fangirl. because that's what i do best, not interacting with people in real life.
i think that is it. i don't have anything to say. so long and good night *sings Helena by MCR* hahah good byeeeeeeeeee xx
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, favourite, friends, happiness, happy, life, school, thoughts
26. Big Bad Wolf Johor.
written on Saturday, June 6, 2015 @ 3:56 PM ✈
before i could scream to myself, i know. i haven't been posting for quite awhile. but that is because i am just lazy. no reason needed. haish. futhermore, i have a lot to tell just too hard to put it into words. i am still stuck with my short stories and all. i think i have to start over a new one. i am feeling a little bit fantasy inspired haha idk.
but anyway, i went to Big Bad Wolf Book Sale last Tuesday i guess with my favourite little one {Amira Farain} hehe. first of all, it was a fun day. it was a real unexpected fun day. you know the day when you just plan what you are going to do but it turned out pretty awesome? yeah. THAT kind of day.
big bad wolf was awesome. i wish i could go there again but i am quite broke at the moment so HAH till then, see you next year mr wolfy *wipes tears dramatically* hahaha but seriously. it was amazing. i bought FOUR books for RM30 only! How crazy is that? normally, i could get only one book for RM30. Big Bad Wolf saved my life as i haven't been buying new books lately. but yay!
we fangirled like crazy people might think we escaped from the asylum or something...
all because of books.
yep.
after that, we went to JBCC because we planned to eat dinner outside. so we walked around together. and then, we bumped into these guys...
a day full of ma faves awh hahahaha oh yeah Amira and I were wearing the same sweater hehehe #twinning4lyf. okay back to the topic hahaha, well we knew that the guys were there and i was kinda hoping that we would meet or what. then, as we were window shopping, suddenly they came up to us. i guess you can say i was surprise i nearly had a heart attack. how very dramatic of me. but really though.
after that, we talked for awhile and took selfie {obviously!} for a bit and thennnnnnn i met my cousin. see what i mean? favourite people. Amira and I then went to Bath & Body Works. like always, we fangirled a lot. we smelt almost everything in the shop before my cousin came in and told me to pick anything cheap hahaha so i picked the Mad About You fragrance mist. hahaha. she paid for it though. thanks kak nadiiii <3
we went to dinner before we went home hehe it was seriously such a fun day. thanks to ma favourite people! i looooooooove you guys so much <3 i smiled the whole through writing this blog post. even thinking about it makes me happy. idk sometimes the simplest thing in life can actually make you happy. so do whatever you want, you might create great memories with it, right? so, why not? ;)
Carpe Librum,
L.
Labels: 2015, bbw, big bad wolf, book, family, favourite, feelings, friends, happiness, happy, memories
21. it's okay not to be okay.
written on Saturday, January 17, 2015 @ 12:07 AM ✈
is it okay not to be okay?
we are humans. we have mixed feelings. we have our ups and downs. so it's okay not to be okay. feel however you feel. cry your eyes out, if that'll make you feel at least a little bit better. other people can't tell what we should happy. we don't know what awaits in the future. we won't always be happy. we could be happy today, but completely miserable the next day.
you should be grateful
you have everything, what do you mean you're not happy?
you shouldn't be sad, there's other people who have it worse.
STOP! you're making it worse.
it's normal to feel down sometimes. we're human after all. so stop telling people to not feel sad because they have a better life. shut up. you are not them. you are you, and your life is different from other people. we already have enough days of wearing mask to cover up the sadness, to hide our feelings by faking a smile. isn't it ridiculous? like we are not allowed to feel other things other than happy. screw what other people who told you what to do or what to feel. they are not walking in your shoes.
we sure can be happy again. of course, we can. we will always try our hardest to be happy again. sing your favourite song out loud. draw what you feel. reread your favourite book. take a walk in the park. dance your heart out (though you don't know how to dance). do more of what makes you happy. even if it's just a little thing. sometimes the little things can make us the happiest. still, it's hard to feel okay again after spent most of our times in darkness. but eventually, we will find the light. it's up to us, it's our choice to choose if we want to be happy again or vice versa.
You the only person alive who holds the key to your healin'.
ignore what other people say. they don't know a thing about us. and they barely knew what we've been through. of course, there's a lot of other people who have it worse, but different people have different capabilities. our mind can cope different things. if you're happy then you're lucky but you don't have to say mean things to others. just because you're happy, you can let other people down.
heh. i don't know why. i just got an idea for a blog post when i was listening to who you are by Jessie J. the title is from the lyrics. sorry for a short (kind of) blog post and sorry if any of these are a bit harsh. if you don't agree with what i said, it's alright. we have completely different opinion.anyways, i think i'm going to make a short fanfiction ;) idk yet. but i already have the ideas though! so wait for it :D
to those who are happy, stay happy and be happy that when other people look at you, they'll feel happy as well. to those who are not, darling, you'll be okay. you can make through this. you are strong. there is a brighter day for us, it just come out a little late because it'll be the best day for us <3
the rainbow always comes out after a long and heavy storm. stay the strongest version of you.
Carpe Librum,
L.
photo credits to WeHeartIt.
and some of the words are lyrics heheh <3
Labels: feelings, happy, life, sad, thoughts
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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